I'm...incapable of describing myself. but I can tell you how I would like to be. have the body of angelina jolie, act like cate blanchet, have the inner scope of lauren hill, the edge of kurt cobain, the eye of nan goldin, the style of lenny kravitz, the reach of mandela, the talent to write like Mike Walden (if you read this I am being so honest!!!) and sing like skin. therefore i have to submit myself to a lot of plastic surgerys, spend time with cate to understand how she does it? dig my soul so deep, take everything out and then somehow project it as a simple truth as lauren; i could say do a lot of drugs but i really dont think that will get me "the edge", perhaps simply transfer my anger, rage and fears into poetry as kurt did; start looking at the beautiful uglyness in the world like nan; ask tom ford for help to be at least a 10th as cool as lenny is; instead of bitching about my life admire those who overcame their conditions; keep learning with Mike and seriously practice singing a lot!

watching good films;buying candles;cooking pizza for 2hrs;taking pictures;watching art galleries;dancing like a maniac;collecting fashion magazines;having water and pasta fights;talking to famous people when i'm drunk;singing;writing scripts,well trying!

cidade de deus;abril despedacado;central do brasil;bicho de sete cabecas;y tu maman tambien;amores perros;habla con ella;code unknown;martin et alice;amelie;run lola run;goodbye lenin;cinema paradiso;dancer in the dark;high fidelity;donnie darko;requiem for a dream;casablanca;fight club;american history x;kill bill;pulp fiction;crounching tigger hidden dragon;2046;million dollar baby;i heart huckabees;21 grams;mulholland drive;clockwork orange;eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

EVENTS OCCUR IN REAL TIME-the most addicting show ever-24! been watching the OC a lot, but the plot isnt going anywhere, at this point I can only stand Seth's woody allen meets jack black phsycotic-ironic humour.miss samantha in sex and the city,still laugh a lot with will and grace,eternal friends fanatic,love the writing and the acting in the west wing;think zach braff in scrubbs is pretty cool,by the way check his latest written-directed film, Garden State. cant forget Benny Hill!

o nome da rosa, the old man and the sea, diplomacy, closer - the play by patrick marber, everything shakespeare wrote, i'm finishing rainha do sul by perez reverte and i think it will enter this list, also was surprised by ethan hawke's second book, ash wednesday.

"One is very crazy when in love" - sigmund freud. I'm glad Freud made this simple for us! And I was afraid he might be subjective about it...